its been a very very long time ever since i have decided to start blogging again thanks to one person.. the past one year i really dunno wat im doing.. all i can recall in i got myself into a mess.. a mess that can onli be clear after at least 3 more years.. so ive been spending my time working, eating, sleeping, slacking and maybe some little excitement once in awhile.. but i totally have no freedom.. im so stress~! but nobody seems to have notice that.. haiz.. even my brothers failed to know bout it.. i shall not ponder bout things that make me sad.. im so lloking forward the day that u finish ur exams.. ><

have been lonely sad dunno y... even now got bike le.. still no where to go..

came back from duty ytd so take cab home in the morning .. sleep awhile den took bus down to marine parade.. should be meeting my cousins at 3 to go katong buy blade de.. but end up i heard wrong timing.. so i reach there at two instead.. so wait lo.. but end up they late somemore.. so they reach at 330 den buy le... YEAH! i got my very own SALOMON blade.. ex sia.. but worth in ba.. very nice somemore..got time post here ba.. kekes.. den back home now..

if u really love someone.. let him/her know.. before its too late..

hmmm jus back from a movie.. qi guai leh.. normally so free no one call me out this weekend suddenly so many ppl sia.. but too bad got duty .. sianz..back to sleep needa wake at 5 again haiz..

today holiday but no where to go sianz.. but lucky got youtube which caizhuang intro me some video.. lol will die laughting..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VLODs3JfgjE&mode=related&search=
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-CjqpaE-Ugw&mode=related&search=
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sreSLtIqczU&mode=related&search
go see ba

another broing and stupid day at work place.. jus plainly wasting time..
go back to pack tools thats it..
somemore thursday morning having to go back .. sianz! its suppose to be half day off la..
things i had sad in my previous post was quite long ago le.. jus wanna let u guys know whats happening around me..

its been a long long time ever since i updated..
alot of things happened ba
got a new adeh somehow..
actually really love her alot..
but jiu shi kai bu liao kuo
cos before that she got hint me le..
so better nt go too near.
but aniwae she got herself a new bf le..
aiya nvm ba..
wish her all the best
den lets talk bout now ba..
den also got myself a new god daughter..
she only 10months old.. hope i can see her grow up
also got myseld a wu gui and a dolphine..
lols eh?
today finally pass my RTE ridining theory evaluation
now is wait for test..
look forward to it .. jus nice now doing 4.01 too hope can go smoothly..
even i kept myself so busy .. im still feeling lonely
anyone can tell me y?

hope there is someone will tell me this~

I've been sitting here

Can't get you off my mind

I've tried my best to be strong

I've drove myself insane

Wishing I could touch your face

But the truth remains..

You're gone..You're...

I don't wanna make excuses, baby

Won't change the fact that you're gone

But if there's something that I could do

Won't you please let me know?

Time is passing so slowly now

Guess that's my life without you

and maybe I could change my every day

But baby I don't want to

So I'll just hang around

and find some things to do

To take my mind off missing you

and I know in my heart

You can't say that you don't love me too

Please say you do

cuz baby i need u..

i rally wonder m i really that bad? is my expectation too high? no! but y ? y?! no one seeems to bother me nt even my love life sucks my career my relationship between ppl to ppl sucks too

haiz haiz haiz.. i really lost now .. even i have gave myself this pathway to walk but it seems so dark that i really dunno how i can carry on .. i really want a better life with happiness .. but all i have now is isolation ... y? Y is things got to be this way... frankly speaking i dunno wat is love .. cos i nv really have this felling ... im in a lost

really miss my hair ... haha

my life had been normal or rather useless from birth till now... there is no goal no point for me to be in this world.. thats one of the reason y i sign on,, no ppl understand or maybe a few .. but its like i still cant see the future wat ill be .. wat kind of life i giving to myself..ever since i went in army... ive lost quite alot of my frens is there anyway i can get them back? or rathe they dun worth it?

now is 1.1.2006 le... years past very fast wor... jus woke up from sleep... ytd was... hmmm... special day eh...lucky nv miss out... damn fun lo... nv knew cheeky monkey is so fun... haha...got lady treat me cigg somemore... haha... but i gave it to my fren la... haha... its so very diff from techno pub...... hmmm.. but spend alot sial... spend 70 jus lidat... haiz haiz... have to save money for bike i aiming far far away... haha... i wonder hows everyone

haiz.. y Y y! i really need someone to be my pillar..but y no one wanna be one?

tired and lost... dunno go where... all my friend is like so FAR away from me le..

dunno is i really cant sleep or izit jus cos they say before the day u sure cant sleep de.. so now im kinda awake? its 445am haiz.. time ticking pass.. i getting more excited den afraid.. haha.. cus its going to me a new me .. new HEN .. im going to be ugly.. but tough.. black? hmm.. haha i wanna know wat will be everyone's comment when they see me..

things are bout to fall in place..
i got few things i wanna say to some ppl
if possible jus read ur part
to buii:
im really glad that i know u in life..
things seems nt to be in the good side for me in year 2005 .. but whenever i called u.. u will sure listen to my complain like a granpa talk to the young ger..
but u nv complain.
REALLY WANNA SAY A BIG THANKS TO U ..

next is ber..
buddy~i know u had a year that is worst den me..
but u dun like to talk bout it or.. im jus useless to be nt there..
really guilty.. and now i really have to be "gone" from tam cos my camp is so very far i have to wait till april or even may lidat den can have to chance to meet u all again le.. really thank u for so being understanding at all times.. even when im giving attitude u will still be there budds 4ever ~

vicki:
dun really know will u see my blog nt .. but jus wanna say sorri and thanks you~ we r good frenz ya?

to tiin !!! we best fren right? i better see ur msg on 9 dec morning ah.. wahaha.. tc

to my beast bros.. sometimes i wonder .. do u guys really need me in the group or am i jus an extra? till this day i still dunno the ans.. but jus bear in mind that no matter wat happen u all will always in my heart..

ming loon : jus becreful of that biatch! she will betray u someday some how..or maybe she will jus bring havoc to ur life..jus tc ba..

to EVERYONE:
plz tc of urself.. jus leave me a msg if u wanna find me.. ill reply asap if i can..
i think this is all i can think of for now.. really gonna miss everyone..
PS: those of names nt mention doesnt mean i nthing to say to u ... nor izit i nv tot of u .. jus simply u r included in the TO EVERYONE section =x

was at home these few days or jus hanging around tam doing nthing.. sianz... so happy that ber called this morning asking me to have dinner .. cos i going amry le.. den watch tv.. den this phrase pass through my mind"if u dun play or do the things u wan , then when u reach old age wont it be too late to regret?"

confession before i go in... next friday is the day... friends i realli gonna miss u all those ppl i nt close to... belive me... i still take u as a good fren in heart... close fren u will always be remed ... sorry to those i gave attitude ... ive seen everything i know im wrong le... realli dun wanna hurt anynoe by words... very sorry...

today went school as usual .. our class had a talk from the head chairman of old chan khee.. not sure correct spelling not.. kk nt important.. nt bad had some new tots bout life.. den happily went home.. thats where the bad news came... my mum say going out to buy dinner for me... and i said yes.. so i stayed at home for my dinner... but little did i know that this day come so soon... MY ENLISTMENT LETTER.. WHY? why so soon ? mani might think im panicking is cos thjings is tough.. but its not... its all cos of one thing... RELATIONSHIP not bgr.. all my frens.. my bros... my sisters... buii... dar... my mummy.. haiz...been out for bout 6hrs... but its beed bugging me the whole while.. jus wanna say... im gonna miss u all... SAR 42 on 09dec at 800am bye~