hope there is someone will tell me this~

I've been sitting here

Can't get you off my mind

I've tried my best to be strong

I've drove myself insane

Wishing I could touch your face

But the truth remains..

You're gone..You're...

I don't wanna make excuses, baby

Won't change the fact that you're gone

But if there's something that I could do

Won't you please let me know?

Time is passing so slowly now

Guess that's my life without you

and maybe I could change my every day

But baby I don't want to

So I'll just hang around

and find some things to do

To take my mind off missing you

and I know in my heart

You can't say that you don't love me too

Please say you do

cuz baby i need u..

i rally wonder m i really that bad? is my expectation too high? no! but y ? y?! no one seeems to bother me nt even my love life sucks my career my relationship between ppl to ppl sucks too

haiz haiz haiz.. i really lost now .. even i have gave myself this pathway to walk but it seems so dark that i really dunno how i can carry on .. i really want a better life with happiness .. but all i have now is isolation ... y? Y is things got to be this way... frankly speaking i dunno wat is love .. cos i nv really have this felling ... im in a lost

really miss my hair ... haha

my life had been normal or rather useless from birth till now... there is no goal no point for me to be in this world.. thats one of the reason y i sign on,, no ppl understand or maybe a few .. but its like i still cant see the future wat ill be .. wat kind of life i giving to myself..ever since i went in army... ive lost quite alot of my frens is there anyway i can get them back? or rathe they dun worth it?

now is 1.1.2006 le... years past very fast wor... jus woke up from sleep... ytd was... hmmm... special day eh...lucky nv miss out... damn fun lo... nv knew cheeky monkey is so fun... haha...got lady treat me cigg somemore... haha... but i gave it to my fren la... haha... its so very diff from techno pub...... hmmm.. but spend alot sial... spend 70 jus lidat... haiz haiz... have to save money for bike i aiming far far away... haha... i wonder hows everyone

haiz.. y Y y! i really need someone to be my pillar..but y no one wanna be one?

tired and lost... dunno go where... all my friend is like so FAR away from me le..

dunno is i really cant sleep or izit jus cos they say before the day u sure cant sleep de.. so now im kinda awake? its 445am haiz.. time ticking pass.. i getting more excited den afraid.. haha.. cus its going to me a new me .. new HEN .. im going to be ugly.. but tough.. black? hmm.. haha i wanna know wat will be everyone's comment when they see me..

things are bout to fall in place..
i got few things i wanna say to some ppl
if possible jus read ur part
to buii:
im really glad that i know u in life..
things seems nt to be in the good side for me in year 2005 .. but whenever i called u.. u will sure listen to my complain like a granpa talk to the young ger..
but u nv complain.
REALLY WANNA SAY A BIG THANKS TO U ..

next is ber..
buddy~i know u had a year that is worst den me..
but u dun like to talk bout it or.. im jus useless to be nt there..
really guilty.. and now i really have to be "gone" from tam cos my camp is so very far i have to wait till april or even may lidat den can have to chance to meet u all again le.. really thank u for so being understanding at all times.. even when im giving attitude u will still be there budds 4ever ~

vicki:
dun really know will u see my blog nt .. but jus wanna say sorri and thanks you~ we r good frenz ya?

to tiin !!! we best fren right? i better see ur msg on 9 dec morning ah.. wahaha.. tc

to my beast bros.. sometimes i wonder .. do u guys really need me in the group or am i jus an extra? till this day i still dunno the ans.. but jus bear in mind that no matter wat happen u all will always in my heart..

ming loon : jus becreful of that biatch! she will betray u someday some how..or maybe she will jus bring havoc to ur life..jus tc ba..

to EVERYONE:
plz tc of urself.. jus leave me a msg if u wanna find me.. ill reply asap if i can..
i think this is all i can think of for now.. really gonna miss everyone..
PS: those of names nt mention doesnt mean i nthing to say to u ... nor izit i nv tot of u .. jus simply u r included in the TO EVERYONE section =x

was at home these few days or jus hanging around tam doing nthing.. sianz... so happy that ber called this morning asking me to have dinner .. cos i going amry le.. den watch tv.. den this phrase pass through my mind"if u dun play or do the things u wan , then when u reach old age wont it be too late to regret?"

confession before i go in... next friday is the day... friends i realli gonna miss u all those ppl i nt close to... belive me... i still take u as a good fren in heart... close fren u will always be remed ... sorry to those i gave attitude ... ive seen everything i know im wrong le... realli dun wanna hurt anynoe by words... very sorry...

today went school as usual .. our class had a talk from the head chairman of old chan khee.. not sure correct spelling not.. kk nt important.. nt bad had some new tots bout life.. den happily went home.. thats where the bad news came... my mum say going out to buy dinner for me... and i said yes.. so i stayed at home for my dinner... but little did i know that this day come so soon... MY ENLISTMENT LETTER.. WHY? why so soon ? mani might think im panicking is cos thjings is tough.. but its not... its all cos of one thing... RELATIONSHIP not bgr.. all my frens.. my bros... my sisters... buii... dar... my mummy.. haiz...been out for bout 6hrs... but its beed bugging me the whole while.. jus wanna say... im gonna miss u all... SAR 42 on 09dec at 800am bye~

its been some time ever since i updated here.. sure have lots of gaga around de.. some ppl must be thinking y this faggot so long nv blog le.. not i dun wan .. is either im busy.. or its cos nthing much have happen.. this year is the year i hate most... so much fresh things im exposed to.. its great but its so short.. so mani loved once getting hurt.. haiz.. my granny fell down not long ago.. so worried.. i wonder this "new group"of mine can stand how long? i gave up so much cos of them.. do they know? i dun think so.. haiz.. wanted to change skin but realli lazi... and not enough materials.. benz~~~~ where is the pic u said u wanna help me wif? haha.. im glad u two doing fine.. p.s. hx i still hate u~ cos u still owe me a apology!

ytd heard a very bad news in the morning while i was study .. i guess quite alot ppl know this case.. there was this guy drown at sentosa.. and yes he is my fren not a very good one.. but i good got impression on him.. but haiz.. no chance to see him anymore le.. and that makes me no mood to study den whole aftermoon of ytd den wan xin hor say meet me 5 so i pon sch so i can go hm change ... den i wait like idiot at home till 6! still no news! finally she pick the phone she nt even hm yet! den end up ytd no go le.. den today jus went... haiz... i almost cant tahan wan cry le la~! >< den heard some bad things at there bout the death... haiz.. i now still thinking...

... jus type finish den press wrong button.. all gone le... nvm ba..lazy to say so much le.. jus to say ytd after chionging.. went lau pa sa.. den after that went esplanade near the merlion there wor.. den at there think alot of stuff... haiz... i still haven have my sdream come true.. i got my bd wish for this year le... which is to have a gf to pei me at there.. haiz..

its been another long time ba.. today feel so ... haiz.. den lucky ming called me go out nua.. den we talk bout alomost anything ba... den happen to say bout doing his new blog skin... den when i think of mine.. haiz.. all the pics a gone.. so when i reach home actually wanna play maple de.. but when i see that nick i so sian lo.. everything i teach him de den he so hao lian .. as if he know more den me bout maple... who teach u hit wat at wat lvl de ? who teach u drink warrior pot de? to make ur sb stronger? arg! nvm den so i came here from here and there take here and there den i came up wif this "new" skin ba.. do some comment on my "new" tag board.. wont be taking out the old one jus in case..

hmmm ~ its been a long time since i up dated ... i guess some of the ppl might wan to know wat i have been up to~ so here goes~ i have found my self a gf at *longlong time ago* and the first week was great (like all my other ex gf)but things went wrong she is not that good after all... she keep demanding me going down to go down to her work place at koven or izit kovan? nvm .. i go lo... den where she live leh? woodland leh!!! i dun mind as i really love her that time.. and everytime i go down she can slowly take her time do this do that...den let me wait for half an hour(her best time)(her worst? three fuking damn hours!) and she didnt even say a thing ! wtf! nvm i ren~ nv be so low to myself den ber kept giving me advise .. ty~ i know she is not happy her self.. ber cheer up u dun have them u still got buii , benz, nette , ma and etc ma~ *this is already past jus feel like talking bout it ba..*

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