i have not been blogging cos i didnt spend much time at home since that THING happen... cos i dun wanna be alone... and im glad im not.. got my bros wif me... those 8 bros de few of them and my 2 year bro.. i know its not long but at least its longer den a love relationship... and i think im oki le.... thanks! and i think the onli think that can keep me occupied other den them is dancing ba... and i hope u will still keep ur promise that u will go to that place wif me ba...

everything have ended le... bye... tc... lying dead...

anyway jus got home... and its 1a.m. le... cos tian ming ask me out to chat ma... gtg sleep also le... haiz bye ppl~

jus got home... today went school den went home den went ming house play game till im going crazy le... feel like playing again... haha... den went to find her at school but nearly went pass her lucky i stop haha... actually not much going on these days jus me and her onli lo...

today morning woke up whole body numb... den waited till 7am den wake her up lo... den finally i can walk around her house le... den send her to my block den i go up le... den she go for her flag day le... haha... den jus a hour or two ago i was stress i dunno y i jus do... but thanks to the bros ... i felt better they told me somethings... and i learn alot from them... thanks guys i appreciate alot! den now teck went crazy le... kept taking rubbish... den i am here typing this lo... cos i waiting for them to start... haha...

jus got home after spending my whole day after school at her house... AND important~ im gonna love my life not this year... haha... and wanna say sori to my bros... sori calvin and teck... cos of rejecting ur invitation to play game wor... and sori ming... for not going down pei u ... sori everyone... i hope u all understand...

Y do ppl always walk big round? when it is jus so near? WAHAHAHA i gonna love this year... Yeah on 12/1/2005 ! you r so special you will be the onli one... i love u... I dunno y... i jus do... ill promise u when i know tt i can do it... A new topic of my life starts now... and i pray, pray to all gods... it wont end..

today sick den my frens not going to school den i think its oki since i dun think teacher will tech anything today ... so i not going also lo... now waiting for my neighbour to bath finiah den we go see doc ba... wahaha...

dunno y this few days like to blog so much... maybe cos im too bored le... haha... anyway i feel lucky, u know y? cos i have this type of family... hehe... although its a very small one that onli have my father, mother and me.. jus had dinner wif them first time in my 2 years... haiz... felt so bad...

anyway its my first day of first school... haha... actually not bad la... oki oki onli jus very sianz... den knew my timetable for the term... all so late... haiz... nvm can save money no need go out... den got new fren in the group too bad not same team as me... he was nice... den he told me that actually nvp easy go in de... his fren 2.5gpa go in le... den i was thinking if i zua this year i might still make it... so please ppl gu li me study hard... espcially those i need... hehe... haiz... oki thats it... i really hope i can make it.. den went to the field den saw those year one de... nv see any ada leh. ddiissaappooiinntteedd... haiz...

finally got home.. do tired... today sunday still need to wake up at 6.30a.m. win liao... but is go do good deed so nvm... den met my group of frens of my school at 8a.m. den went to a temple call Foo Ch'an Temple at geylang bla bla bla... near aljunied.. got there i was WA cos the statue as tall as 3 floors lidat lo... so finally got to the main point.. i was there cos of e Ren Ci Charity show.. and im in the Ren Ci Charity Hotline Team... but too bad is in the morning ... where got ppl so early call to make a more den $30 call? and waited till 10+ finally first call of the day... but too bad not mine den keep waiting till sleep lo... den at 1045 went to the toilet.. came back my fren said theres a call shit! not i pick up de... but at least got a $50 donation den i was thinking haiz... saded didnt help out... den at 1245 we going to change shift le den finally my group de rang den my hand faster hehehe den i pick up the call i was so jing zang thet i kept saying wrong things ME: good evening ar ar thank you for calling ar ren ci hotline charity hot line this is henry speaking how may i help u? CALLER: i would like to make a donation. ME: how do i address u? CALLER: N G L E E *** ME: how much u would like to donate? CALLER: 500 ME: HUH?!(i started to be more jing zang lo...)(500 leh) CALLER: ya 500 ME: may i have ur no. and u r paying by? card no.? CALLER: VISA ******************************** THANK YOU FOR CALLING =) haha i was jumping around lo.. den evryone was like -.-'' den back home le lo...

jus got back from some place where i seldom go... pub... pei my buddy... and also her bro ... so can say my bro also... that place actualli nt bad de... den farking hell ... saw the first gal i like when i step into pavi when i was sec two!!! den saw her bf... and bf's fren i hate him , but that ws the past... but today they spoil my day there lo... keep snatching my place as if they dance very nice lidat... arg~ there was this gay looking guy gan er xin lo... but nvm at least i saw the new dance step by some other pros... woo... nice... but should i go back there again?

Y do rain always come when i saw sunshine? Y!

another boring day at home... onli my com pei me... luckily got new game... but tmd lag lo... and i realise my phone is so quiet... not like before le... haiz...

haiz tio dua again ~ haiz... y izit always lidat~ nvm lo... beta i can get my spec first... hmp~ anyway glad that ming is oki le still can see him walk around in hm ... felt happy... but hmp im jealous... he didnt tag for me... hehez.. nvm lo.... >.<

another night ... cant sleep ... dunno y... wat am i thinking bout? and now is 5a.m le lo... i wan to live in a healthy lifestlye also cannot... now i so skinny le... haiz... worried...

wat a xmas!!! tio dua again!!! four years of boring xmas... lucky still have 2 bro and a sis at last min to past my time... but y must i always be single on xmas??? am i really that bad ? i used to had bad temper... very bad but i really change le.. .for i learned my mistake... i tried to by as good temper as i can le... but did i do wrong now? wat i had to accompany me now is ah long... the lizard around my room always come out to make me luff de... cos when i look at it ... it will run away as thou im a monster... but i tot i should the one who is afraid?? haiz... but at least this xmas EVE they called me go along... and i hope things will go fine wif me and them.... but jus a scent of sorrow surrounds me... i weak , very weak... jus feels like lying down ... i dunno where also... i really hopes its raining now.... i jus dunno wat to say ! but i wanna say something... theres is too much things cramp in my heart so hard to... or izit im too hungry??? XP

sianz... feel like MIA also... maybe for a few days ba... and for those i wanna meet i will find u all... but anyway no one will find me also...

im sittin on the chair and think... think is wat i do .. i can onli think but not do... im a failure.. jus feel that way.. dun ask me y... i just do... i will nv do things right.. im jus a nobody a shadow amough ppl .. a bug that is flying around finding place for comfort to rest... im tired, tired i say ... jus feel like forfiet all my str to fly and drop down form sky.. and i may be crush by others feet..m and i will be gone... wat have i done i this holiday... = nothing... wat i have been thinking to do = alot of shit.. ARG~~~

i today woke up early... cos actually wanna pei my dear mei mei go somewhere de... haiz... saded... but i think at the last min she change her mind ba... but i hope everything go smoth for her ... worried bout her... and been thinking bout GOING TO VISIT AH MING ON EVE wif lots of ppl around pei him... but i was wondering to call who~~~ and wat time all of us could make it... SO THISE WHO INTRESTED PLAESE CALL ME~~~